I feel lonely and centered from everyone else. Help please.?

I am 14 year old girl. I feel unattached to the whole world. Me and my family are very close. I feel like noone likes me though, i have 3 best friends. I feel in desperate need of a guy to be there with me. I keep feeling depressed and my emotions rage around. I dont know whats wrong with me. I have a few anxiety attacks. I just feel like if i had a boyfriend to hold me and be there, i would feel safe and comfortable. Thats all i ever want. I attract guys, but there is noone that is willing to be in a relationship. I really like a guy but i dont even know. I honestly dont know whats happening. Im just depressed right now laying in bed speaking everything from my mind, and this probably doesnt make sense. I know you guys think im weird as ***** right now saying what am i syupposed to say what are you trying to ask. Ijust dont even know. What do ido with my life. I want a boyfriend :(